Nostalgia is evil !

Memories never fade, be it the memories of being a tiny girl in a tiny frock holding dad's little finger or be it mom running behind with a glass of milk which I would always find a place to dispose off when she wasn't around.

Memories of going to school and college, standing in the prayer hall, sharing lunch, competing with friends for marks, begging the teachers to give one more mark, falling down with bruises during the play hour, trying to be the teachers' favorite, being in our own "groups", cursing the university for the marks, remain fresh. 

Memories of joining my first job and leaving it in a couple of months to find something more appealing, waiting for months to find the right job, settling in the new job, trying to make a mark for self, loving the job and people around, loving the adrenaline rush the job brought every single day….I miss it.

Memories of seeing a guy and getting engaged to him within a few days of meeting him first, maintaining a long distance relationship for 5 months and then getting married and settling into a new life with new people, leaving mom and dad in a house I grew up in, still brings a happy-sad smile on my face. 

Memories of ma-in-law cooking delicious food, the ma-in-law/daughter-in-law bonding that happened over lunchtime, the doting dad-in-law's talk when he came back from office, the times I spent teasing my little sis-in-law, laughing with her, still lingers in the mind everyday.

Nostalgia, I say, surely, is evil!

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Valentine…ahem!ahem!

Long, long, long ago…not so long ago, I never had a valentine. Today, I have one - my brand new husband! 

I was thinking of all the years gone by when I was single and lonesome on Valentine's Day ( I make myself sound like a secluded soul, don't I? Ah…old habits die hard. A shitty piece of melodramatic fur ball I am I say and God, am I not proud of the fact :p). Those were the days when looking at those "completely in love" couples was an eyesore. To top it, the hype surrounding the day used to be a reminder to us singles that another year was going to pass with only ourselves for company. 

Why all this now? Well…I was thinking of "love" and the hype surrounding the whole existence of "love". I also have been a sheep in the herd when it came to "love"…maybe my definition of love was also superficial sometime ago or maybe it was not. I think the meaning of love changes at every stage in life, it evolves, it changes. I don't know if love is constant but I know change is constant. 

But, yes, this year I had my valentine with me and am completely in love with him. Currently he is my definition of love and it now feels love is also constant. 

I have no idea how I wanted to structure this post. So, I leave this post abruptly for I don't know what I initially intended to convey. Strange…sometimes a lot gets unsaid and you still feel a lot lighter in the head than from the time you started. 

Before I end a post which I have no idea why I started, just a random thought, I think love is more of "a feeling of security". I will let you and me ponder over it for a while…. 

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Back to square one...

I, hereby, pompously declare that I am now entitled to the most coveted position of womanhood -  “Wife”.  I, also declare that I will use the same cliché line when I enter motherhood. Thank You.

Coming back to being a “wife”..well, it all happened just a few days back. The details, though no one’s business, might help me compose a couple of posts when I have nothing to write. Mind you…a couple of posts in my terms might be >10 posts in layman terms.

Being a girl entitles you to be melodramatic from the time you are born. Being a “wife” just accentuates the fact. I can see my husband nodding his head in affirmation when he reads this post (Will he read? That’s the biggest question haunting me currently. No worries..I have the tissues ready. Right girls?). Infact, I can see all husbands nodding their heads, affirming the fact. So, now that am entitled to being a wife and naturally more melodramatic owing to this new bit of position I have earned, I rightfully want to use the opportunity to start off my nautanki  once again, something that I stopped abruptly in my previous blog.

This is what happened previously…A quick recap!

Writing is my passion. Sic sic. Well, this is what I thought when I started my first blog “Thoughtless Ramifications…” about 2 years ago. I did update it, well, not so regularly, till May this year and then I got engaged. Ahh…my first chance to blame my then-fiancé and my now-husband on my blog. I was told that the first rule of wifedom is “Blame your husband irrespective of him being involved in the matter” and am just sticking to the rules of wifedom.  Before I forget, I also had one other blog, or rather have, by the name “BowTie :)” which is currently in the graveyard mode and might be in the same mode for another, err, couple of years until Blogger forcefully kicks it out to make some space for “the like useful junk”.

I am hoping to be third time lucky and hence this new space…”Melodrama Private Ltd.”

I cribbed and cribbed more to choose an apt name for this blog of mine. I even gnawed at the husband’s brain for the same. Woah…not even a month into marriage and I seem to be getting a good hold of being a typical “wife”:p

Like all my other blogs..this is also going to be an extension of myself. A little bit me and a little bit of my perspective about things not me. Hope I can manage to keep this blog alive and actually be third time lucky !

This is what I wrote more than a month ago. But, dude, I am a girl. I change my clothes and my mind more frequently than a chameleon changes its colour. So, now I feel like continuing this blog of mine and deleting the third one. So, guys...watch out for my thoughtless ramifications here...

Thanks for the co-operation..

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Restless…

After a long hiatus, I am back. I feel very rusty now. My fingers tremble a little when I sit to write this post.

Past few months have been kind of a roller coaster ride – ups and downs, hair raising situations, scream your lungs out kind of situations, and then, ultimately the feeling of 'What happened just now?’

I am a firm believer of “Be yourself” in any and every situation. Life certainly is not a cakewalk all the time. Each one of us react in different ways  to various situations, each one right in their own way! I think most of the times, we blame the other person because we have no one to blame and blaming ourselves seems so not right. Sometimes, we blame the situation. Sometimes, we blame ourselves. But, there is no point in blaming anyone, be it the other person, be it the situation or be it yourself. I think I have blamed myself for the past few days. Coming to think of it now, I wonder why. I would have, anyway, done what I did or react the way I did. I have no regrets, no qualms. I sound too philosophical, don’t I? Darn! I told you I am a bit rusty!

My philosophy of life is very simple – “Be yourself. Do what you feel is right. Never hide your feelings, emotions, fears – make them heard. Fear what you have to. Get angry when you want to. Ask questions, expect answers and then accept them with an open mind. Don’t fear the consequences when you think what you are doing is right, or be scared, but always be ready to face the consequences. Break down when you want to. Be strong when you have to, if not for yourself, atleast for others who are near and dear to you; you will eventually learn to be strong for yourself. Don’t repent anything when you think what you did was what you would have done anyways. Never lose hope. Be yourself and be awesome. Never lie to yourself . Just be “you” for you are awesome!"

Uff! I get so philosophical sometimes. Funny. I can see parts of my life before my eyes. Nostalgia creeping in. Memories making their presence felt. I treasure them, however good or bad, because, they have been a part of me. No qualms, no regrets…just a few awesome memories. I, often wonder why a few things, a few people, a few instances don’t last forever in our lives. I think everything happens for a reason. I think every person enters and leaves one’s life for a reason – a reason unknown. Treasure them, miss them, but be happy that they did come and make you happy for that short period of time in your life.

Oops..too much philosophy again. Funny. By the way, I plan to write a book and name it “It’s funny!” My friend, the other day, observed that I find a lot of things funny (including the “pants on fire” kind of situations). Funny.

As I end this post, a few lines resonate in my mind. Lines from November Rain(Guns N Roses) and Lost(Coldplay):

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
(November Rain)

                                                

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one
And you'll be lost

(Lost)

We will meet again…Till then, goodbye and happy life!!

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Back again...

I deleted all my previous 2012 posts and I cannot retrieve them...one of the many reasons why I feel like kicking myself currently. So, I have no posts for 2012 barring this one.

I will be back again in sometime, maybe sooner than expected. Hoping to get the zing back. I feel very rusty now. Where was I all these days is something I myself don't seem to know. Maybe, it is called the "bubble-effect".

See you soon guys and girls.

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